I already posted a video on my YouTube channel explaining why I’ve been so absent lately. But I wanted to write some things on here as well because why only talk about something once when you can do it multiple times?!
Alright, so maybe I’m just being obnoxious, but sometimes it’s just easier for me to write things out than say them to a camera lens while alone in my room. SO weird, I know.
If you watched the video, you’ll know the short version of the story is that I finished school, got an internship, and moved into an apartment by myself. The longer and more pathetic version is that I’m having a difficult time adjusting to life as an adult. Adult life is REALLY DIFFICULT, you guys. And I’m not being sarcastic (for once).
I work for eight hours a day, sleep for seven, and all those hours in the middle just seem to disappear. Gone are the days of laying in bed watching videos. If I ever have a spare few hours, I spend them making dinner, or vacuuming the floor that I swear is ALWAYS dirty. It’s like being an adult just comes with dust vision and I used to be blind to it but now it’s EVERYWHERE. I always have to go to the grocery store or clean the fridge or do laundry… Nothing is ever done.
I’ve been living on my own for about three weeks now and I’m already over being an adult. Last week, my fire alarm started beeping at 6AM because the battery was dying, and I just sat in bed for an hour, unable to sleep, pretending I wasn’t an adult and therefore it wasn’t my responsibility to fix it. True story.
But I have a lot of responsibilities now, including taking care of my cat, myself, and the ants that have invaded my apartment (but sadly not the people who live above me who CONSTANTLY move their furniture for reasons I cannot comprehend…I can’t do anything about them).
I should probably go back and fix that last sentence to clarify that I am not taking care of the ants in the same way that I am taking care of myself and my cat…but I think it’s kind of funny so I’m going to keep it.
Anyway. This rant really serves no purpose other than to tell you that I am now an adult and I am having a difficult time being one, which is why I haven’t been able to keep up with my other non-adult responsibilities such as uploading videos to YouTube and writing blog posts. Those are the things I want to do more than any of the other things (except maybe devise a plan to make my upstairs neighbors move…but that’s not the point), but sadly the other things come first most of the time. Regardless, I am starting to feel more comfortable here, so I am hoping that I’m now moving into the right frame of mind to start making videos and writing again. UGH. MOVING. AGAIN! The thought makes me cringe. But this move will hopefully require less packing and cleaning, and much more fun and dumb. x